The voices come.
As much as I want to hope that I don’t need the antipsychotics anymore and I’m no longer hallucinating, the voices show up as I lay in bed trying to sleep. They’re really disruptive and I wish I could remember what they said so I could write it out. This didn’t used to happen.
Maybe it’s nothing.
Edit to add:
Here’s a sampling of the kinds of things the voices say in that brief few minutes before I fall asleep:
Don’t leave me alone with her, I thought
With who? She asked
Yeah, who? He agreed
Shh, came the child
Right, you’re not really hearing voices, she sneered
He screamed, and screamed, one seemingly unending tone
He’s insane, she said
A child’s giggle
No one will ever trust him or believe him. Ruined for life, he is. She went on
Never going to be the same, he whispered
Let him sleep, the child pleaded
Yes sleep, he said
Fine, fine, that’s enough for tonight, crazy weirdo, she said